Shimple's "Blog"
Welcome visitor! This is where i vent all my discomforts or benevolent events that happen along some day at some hour and i then memorize and write them down here!
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WARNING:
Crybaby behaviour up ahead!
Monday 31 - March 2025 | 20:45 - 21:50
In my bed i was calm, well.. as calm as i could be at that moment in my bed of course. Until my mom knocked on my door and entered my room.
She saw me in bed, peacefully. That was until she reminded me that i didn't read something she had told me to read (some school thing), and then she proceeded to complain about how i needed to change and stop fooling around because i'm in 9th grade, and the last bit hurt me, she said she'll take me off of my computer earlier than usual to study.
I get it, i haven't been the best in the past years, and normally this complaint wouldn't have made me cry. But this time since i was in a quiet and tranquil space before she came in and with agressivity complained. So of course, i cried right after she left.
And worst of all, when i cry.. My mind just replays every single time i've messed up or something bad has happened to me, making me cry even more until i can't. And then i just think how aggressive her words were and.. i just.. can't deal with this anymore..
Worst of all on top of this i feel like she makes me feel guilty for something i didn't do, for something i didn't do wrong. For her it's disobedience, but to me.. it's not disobedience, it's a simple leniency towards being free and doing whatever i want, and i don't even do bad things at school, i write everything, always stay seated, don't disrespect anyone.. and.. even then.. she doesn't appreciate that.. she only complains about how i don't study or how i need to perk up and stuff.. but never pays any attention to how calm i am in class..
In class i'm always calm, writing stuff that's explicitly been meant to be written, and doing my best. And altough i've had some issues these first days [first temper break last week] i've been fine! My teachers teach good and are pretty soft towards us minorities called "good students", but there's this teacher that kinda irks me. That is, Mr. Jaime Morales
He's a grumpy old man who's been teaching in this school for the past 37 or so years, and while he isn't completely grumpy, he's grumpy enough to be scary and annoying. Every time Manuel messes up, he rants and rants about how in the military Mr. Manuel's gonna have to say "Yes Sir!" and how Mr. Manuel needs to learn how to say "Present!" instead of "Yea?", "I'm here!" and stuff like that. He also dictates fast, too fast.. i can barely even write the questions he says, and even then my words end up like spaghetti.
Tuesday 1 - April 2025 | 9:35
9:35 | I can already feel this is a terrible day waiting to happen, first i tried to make myself some collation to bring to school, and turns out it's.. not nearly enough, and now here in the first recess one of my sandwiches just got left back up in the 3rd floor, and i couldn't get it because "you have to be down below in recess". I just hope it's not mashed to up to a pulp by those muthaf___as who go down without looking where they step.. and even then, ants exist..
9:50 | Didn't fucking find it and instead i'm eating compote, which's lid was broken.. Thankfully the compote was hard enough to not flop over the hole and ruin my backpack
9:52 | Now that i think about it, cleaning staff prolly just spotted the sandwich and then threw it to the trash, in which case. F__K THIS WORLD!
Monday 7 - April 2025 | 15:35
I hate history class, again. It's just that damn teacher, even though i don't do anything wrong and he doesn't talk to me directly, he makes me feel like shit. It really is not fair, i'm a sensitive boy, i don't like harsh words like his.
If i could i would cry in class.
Wednesday 9 - April 2025 | 17:55
I officially consider Mondays and Tuesdays the days i least enjoy out of the week. Monday because i have to exit school at 5:00 PM and have history class, and Tuesday because i have History class and PE. The rest of the days i exit school at 3:20 PM which is uh, decent i guess.
Thursday 15 - May 2025 | 19:30
My mom forces me to read history [ugh], it was boring as hell. I wanted to rip my ears off and just storm out of my room because i REALLY dislike reading, specially history. Like, do you know when you're gonna use that knowledge? no, of course not. You don't simply talk about history in a casual conversation; hell, i don't even know why it's graded! It makes no sense, it just sits there in your mind doing nothing while literature and mathematics do all the heavy lifting, what even is the point of grading something that soon enough you'll forget?
Where do you even use history? It's not like you need to remember the date at which George Washington died to apply for a job or order a meal, or have a small chat with someone. So why do we need to memorize and learn it?
And don't give me the "it's common knowledge" excuse, because i've heard it way too many times, at least in biology it makes some sense, but history? Come on now, it's all just theory with extra steps!